For so many people have referred to me as an amazing person....
But every time I hear it, I look into their eyes and I search for the sincerity. Rarely do I find someone who says that, and actually has that unwavering stare. The stare that even if they had the option put in front of them to lie and live or speak truthfully and die...They would undoubtedly at that very second speak the truth.
It saddens me that so many see it as I need comforting...I need a pick me up...Or i just need a friend... I admit, I am lonely. I never really feel quite myself without someone around, someone to share my thoughts with. Someone I can confide in all my fears and my concerns.
No matter, It not just saddens me...but upsets me. Why do people feel it important to lie to my face, when they clearly dont mean what they say? I know I am an amazing person, because I am alive! And I know what I want in life, and I have the best guide in the world...The Book of Mormon. So if you feel it necessary to come lie to my face...grow a pair and just say what your really feeling. I'm positive it wont just make me feel better about it, because I know you were honest...but I know you'll feel better about it too.
I say this...and yet so far I only know of two people that read this, and neither of them have said I was an amazing person to my face. Just venting i suppose...but thats what this is for eh? recording your thoughts?
This week has been one of the most ridiculous weeks ever. But after tonight...after reading for a good portion of the night. I have a new goal in mind...One that I will not divuldge but to a certain few individuals. But know this, I will not be the same...My persona, if i am able to achieve this goal, will no longer be what it is. If I succeed...you can be the judge of wether or not it was for good, or for bad.
-Prayer is the key
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Anthony, you are becoming a more amazing person day by day. Just never forget the 5th principle of the gospel: Enduring to the End.
ReplyDeleteIt's the hardest one to live, but it's also the one that is the most rewarding. But I didn't have to tell you that, you already knew it. And that's one things about you that IS amazing.